1. |
Alright
03:18
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And I was not alright seeing grandad’s corpse
and I was not alright showing no remorse
but I gotta say I was pretty bored
as we all poured salt on this open sore.
But when daddy turned the tv off
I was so afraid of getting lost
as all of my true peace was in creative wit
but I was forced to endure this creation myth.
These crying eyes
meet my sorry lies
the air is unfair, but I don’t care.
Such a sorry sight,
oh watch how they fight,
the air is unfair, but I don’t care.
The cold air of the night, but I’m alright.
The air is unfair, but I don’t care.
Now maybe in my death I’ll have room to breathe
without disappointing my family.
But I am sorry if I don’t externally grieve
when I say death doesn’t affect me.
Although I wish that I could be set free
we are all bound to this mortality
so just accept that life has no meaning
and I’ll admit death doesn’t affect me.
So far away.
But now we’re here.
(Send away away) I know you’re feeling lost
(send him away) but it comes at a cost.
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2. |
First Thoughts
04:10
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It’s a new, brisk, cool breath.
And your fingers so wet.
And I tried to hollow out something new
that could hold this warm light, this new hue.
These streets painted us, and held our hands.
Together the fall was not so long.
You caught us, held us tight, gave fresh breaths,
stomachs held heat, and kissed our chests.
Now the curtains are drawn, and it’s dark.
You are your nails out so long just for the start.
And I sewn a deep phrase, for a moment of rest,
but we’ve tossed it aside for nothing less.
And in the long ride back home the warmth was yet to tire
for this existed only in dreams for three years prior
now this blissful, beautiful spark held by a choir
is kindled into something more, this raging fire.
If diamonds are pure, then can they feed the rest
who search for something more, but settle for less?
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3. |
Naomi Paints Herself
03:21
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As Naomi paints herself
I clutch my lonely chest.
Why doesn’t she pick up the phone?
Why doesn’t she want to paint me?
As Naomi pants herself
she feels a warmth in her chest
alone her heart can rest,
alone she takes a breath.
Are we better when we’re alone?
Are we better when we’ve been alone
to later come back together
to love, refreshed and new?
Now Naomi has painted herself
she feels peaceful and she feels whole
we cared for a bodies alone
now we join them to create unknown.
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4. |
Greed
09:07
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Give it to me give it to me like it I like it give it to me. Give it to me.
Is it fair that I got to know you?
In this short while that I’ve been here I’ve continued to watch you sleep through misery,
The hands that my boys have placed on you have torn your soul in two.
Yes, I take responsibility for their actions because none of us needed a vacation.
But then we fucked on their airplane. Have you fucked with the air today? I’m asking you,
Have you fucked with the air today?
Or did you pick up your things so you could sit in another room
And you watch the news.
So happy that it’s not you.
But some day you’ll grow up and you’ll start to understand that
This is why we never existed at all.
This is why I’m existing at all.
So is it fair that I got to know you?
Is it fair that I got to know you? I’m asking you,
Is it fair that I got to know you?
Is it fair that I got to know you?
You never thought it would happen to us.
How could we know it would happen to us?
That’s like the shitty thing about it I guess.
I guess that’s why it’s greed.
I guess that’s why, when the sun falls down, it’ll fall on all of us.
And maybe then we’ll be together again.
Cause when the sun falls down.
Will it make a sound.
Cause when the sun don’t rise
Will we be surprised
Cause all the trees are wondering where we went so long ago.
We packed our bags and crafted flags to split all that we know.
Now we live in greed, such a great country, and wait for tomorrow.
But just look around and hear this sound, this is our chance to grow.
Cause when the sun falls down.
Will it make a sound.
Cause when the sun don’t rise
Will we be surprised
Cause all the trees are wondering if you’re every coming back.
I say I just don’t know if we’ll ever grow with these alternative facts.
But I have hope that from The Boat we’ll see a brand new path.
So hand in hand we walk this land and fix the aftermath.
Cause when the sun falls down.
Will it make a sound.
Cause when the sun don’t rise
Will we be surprised
You’ll live in greed, when the sun falls down.
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5. |
Showersong
04:39
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Keep the lights off in the shower, the dark feels best to be undressed.
Keeping your face in my mind I know that you’re beautiful and I appreciate it.
But when we both glide to rest in our separate beds across town,
We forget the shapes of each others hands.
I know that in the moon you can see my face
Cause I’m staring right back at you.
Take a picture of it and send it to me.
I love you, don’t forget me.
I love you, don’t forget me.
I forget you, lying in the dark, so long that I thought the moon would never turn.
The night lasted for decades as I kissed the cheek of a fantasy.
I’m sorry. I’m sorry baby I was only dreaming.
I’m sorry. I’m sorry baby I was chasing a dream.
So to collapse into you once again is like a true gift
From made a good god or a ghost.
I’m tired now.
And I wish I could touch you, but your wrapped in your mothers sheets,
Dreaming of a place with a bed that you bought all on your own.
Now I sit all on my own with nothing but words for you,
Looking up to the moon, I hope to see you again someday.
We all are so unique and I love what we can create.
Even if it rips apart I'll cherish times where it feels great.
But as I ruminate on what I want I realize that there's no rush.
I just hope that time and space will allow us to keep in touch.
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6. |
Dwells
05:10
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There's yet to be a day where I can say it doesn't hurt.
Not from the words you wrote but from the shoulder that you turned.
I'm sorry I wasn't enough for you, or that I probably was just too much.
But I didn't think it'd break so soon, this bond that we called us.
That night we spent on the roof, I had never felt closer to you.
All the harmonies hummed their tune and brought the both of us up to the moon.
But when we came crashing down the next day, dear, we left a crater that dug so deep.
And as my eyes dilated in the light I did my best to conceal my grief.
Oh.
Oh did you feel the same way, the same way as me? Oh.
I think about you everyday, every fucking day.
I took the summer off of love so I could mend a broken heart.
And while it still hurt to see your face I turned it all into smoke and art.
But now we split the tides and I think I'm alright, a whole new page and a whole new life.
But when I drop by to say hello I hope my new light will suffice.
Oh.
Now all these feeling wash away with the constant change of day. Oh.
And now I'm living in what I've made and I don't need you to stay.
We all are so unique and I love what we can create.
Even if it rips apart I'll cherish times where it feels great.
But as I ruminate on what I want I realize that there's no rush.
I just hope that time and space will allow us to keep in touch.
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7. |
Portrait of
08:56
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(This isn't for me, this isn't for you, this is a Portrait of)
You told me that it was a broken home.
You said that it meant everything to you.
Then you died at thanksgiving.
But you justified my living.
She walked into the backyard in the middle of the night,
But she forgot to lock the car door, so I snuck into the back seat.
The next day she drove to school.
I walked behind her, then I ran home.
Is it bigger in the nighttime?
Or does it even exist at all?
I’ve peeled the wood from houses
that build our wall.
Is it bigger in the nighttime?
Or does it even exist at all?
I’ve peeled the wood from houses
that build our wall.
I don’t exist.
I’m made of liquid.
I’ll flood your room,
And I’ll tear your insides out.
Please don’t resist
Are you afraid or just
Exhaling love from your mouth.
I don’t exist.
I’m made of liquid.
I’ll flood your room,
And I’ll tear your insides out.
I’ll paint your neck
With Flying Colors
And you’ll fall into my mouth.
I don’t exist.
I’m made of liquid.
I’ll flood your room,
And I’ll fuck your insides out.
And from the backseat of your car
I watch your eyes move to that star
A Star that’s only in our dreams
A star that’s only as it seems.
Is it bigger in the nighttime?
Or does it even exist at all?
I’ve peeled the wood from houses
That built our wall
Is there anybody out there
Who could possibly break my fall?
I’m just at odds with the world, not in love with a girl.
I’m sick and enthralled.
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8. |
The Last Night
05:45
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The last night you answered my call,
The right words were so far gone.
But just once I wish I was there.
Just once, and just once.
I wish I could save you from the worms.
Selfish minds like mine still crave your words.
But once more I wish I could hear you.
Once more, just once more.
This was the last night the air was still.
Home to the final flight of your own will.
And from he ground you take your last breath.
Your last night, your last breath.
This is the last night for us all
Before you construct your final wall.
And from the ground we wave goodbye.
I wish you peace in this last sigh.
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9. |
Without U
07:14
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I spent the summer inside my bedroom
As if my death was coming soon
I felt like nothing without you.
So as I finally managed to stand,
I see you’ve taken the upper hand,
And now I’m nothing and it’s true.
Now the winter is coming fast,
And I’ve collected quite the stash
But me and winter never equals two.
I’m getting cold and uninspired
but if I start a little fire,
I guess that heat will have to do.
But when I left the summer,
I changed it up a bit.
I dipped into another,
A little less passionate.
Always looking for something else,
To define what I can not,
Even if it’s under covers,
It sure is a comforting thought.
And if I’m nothing without you
Then I sure as hell approve.
You take all I have to give,
And I’ll take what I need to live.
If I’m nothing without you
Then I sure as hell approve.
You take all I have to give,
And I’ll take what I need to live.
I left the summer inside my bedroom,
But when I went outside,
I found nothing without you.
And if the summer’s still inside my bedroom,
Then all I ask is why
Am I nothing without you.
And if I’m nothing without you
Then I’m nothing without you
And I’m nothing without you.
And if I’m nothing without you
Then I’m nothing without you
And I’m nothing without you.
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